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It's hard for me to pray, because everytime I do, I end up bawling my eyes out and sobbing on the floor. Not for feeling bad or remorsful but more of an overwhelming emotional feeling and I can't keep from crying out to God.
My testimony was a prayer!
My wife and I had gone thru a year and a half of trying to have a child on our own,,, and a year and a half of treatments, trying to get my wife pregnant. A we became pregnant and miscarried a baby during the treatment stage...
Now without getting into to much depth... The problem was on my wife's side due to her body making to much estrogen. To much estrogen equals a happy women all month long! There is no, "week long fishing trips" once a month!!!
Problem: no week long down time = no ovulation and no mature egg to fertilize. So when my wife had her "week" of no fun, the Docs were amazed and wanted her in there for crazy testing. And a return visit to see if her body ovulated.
My Prayer came one night at church when they had an alter call:
I cried out for God "Please give me and my wife a child or take this want and passion out of our hearts!" there was more to it but this was the point and I felt like I was almost demanding it...
He did exactly what I asked and delivered us from the "want" to have a child... No more passion in our hearts, to have a child.... We didn't understand why he chose that route.
I became very angry with God asking him "Why!?! Why did you choose to take the passion away instead of giving us a child?"
Many months pasted and we stopped going to church. My dad and I on opening day got together for a hunt and he asked me while we were in the middle of a biblical discussion, "Are you and Lindsey still trying to have a kid?"
I said, "No, God took that out of our hearts so we're thinking about adoption."
For the first time I had said it with acceptance and almost immediately I felt the passion and love and need for a child again.... I was confused...
I started bawling, and my dad asked what the matter was. I told him what was going on and he just tried to comfort me.
About a week after we accepted what God has done for us. She started her "thing" out of the blue...
We think nothing of it because the Docs have already told us that we'll never have a child.
I told her "Just make your appointment and go take your test." And then 2 weeks later we go back to see if she ovulated. It came back positive for the first time!
"We actually could get pregnant this month!"
The day was Nov. 16th 2007
I know this day very well because I had my wisdom teeth taken out on this date. And my wife had an appointment to go see her OB. I wanted to go but was still feeling the drugs from the oral surgery.
I woke up to a crying wife and a cotton ball filled mouth.
I said, "Wwwwws Wooooog?"
Spit the gauze and cotton balls and said, What's wrong?
She said, "I'm sorry I didn't let you go!"
"what's going on, are you okay?"
And the picture came out......"We're 6 weeks pregnant!"
And I heard our babies heart beat!
Of course the tears started falling.
A lot of this didn't make a lot of since when we were telling people until we put a time line on it and everyones eyes and mouths just seemed to be wide open then.
1st 1.5 years we tried by our selfs - and got no Glory!
2nd 1.5 years we let the Docs try - heartache and no Glory.
We Prayed God answered, a eventually accepted it, and then God answered our prayers.
And HE gets ALL the GLORY!!!!!
I made a promise to God, that if he gave us a healthy baby, I get up and tell the church our testimony.
I have a huge fear of speaking in public so I still haven't got up in front of the church. But I have hold just about everyone I know.
My beautiful gift from God!
It's hard for me to pray, because everytime I do, I end up bawling my eyes out and sobbing on the floor. Not for feeling bad or remorsful but more of an overwhelming emotional feeling and I can't keep from crying out to God.
My testimony was a prayer!
My wife and I had gone thru a year and a half of trying to have a child on our own,,, and a year and a half of treatments, trying to get my wife pregnant. A we became pregnant and miscarried a baby during the treatment stage...
Now without getting into to much depth... The problem was on my wife's side due to her body making to much estrogen. To much estrogen equals a happy women all month long! There is no, "week long fishing trips" once a month!!!
Problem: no week long down time = no ovulation and no mature egg to fertilize. So when my wife had her "week" of no fun, the Docs were amazed and wanted her in there for crazy testing. And a return visit to see if her body ovulated.
My Prayer came one night at church when they had an alter call:
I cried out for God "Please give me and my wife a child or take this want and passion out of our hearts!" there was more to it but this was the point and I felt like I was almost demanding it...
He did exactly what I asked and delivered us from the "want" to have a child... No more passion in our hearts, to have a child.... We didn't understand why he chose that route.
I became very angry with God asking him "Why!?! Why did you choose to take the passion away instead of giving us a child?"
Many months pasted and we stopped going to church. My dad and I on opening day got together for a hunt and he asked me while we were in the middle of a biblical discussion, "Are you and Lindsey still trying to have a kid?"
I said, "No, God took that out of our hearts so we're thinking about adoption."
For the first time I had said it with acceptance and almost immediately I felt the passion and love and need for a child again.... I was confused...
I started bawling, and my dad asked what the matter was. I told him what was going on and he just tried to comfort me.
About a week after we accepted what God has done for us. She started her "thing" out of the blue...
We think nothing of it because the Docs have already told us that we'll never have a child.
I told her "Just make your appointment and go take your test." And then 2 weeks later we go back to see if she ovulated. It came back positive for the first time!
"We actually could get pregnant this month!"
The day was Nov. 16th 2007
I know this day very well because I had my wisdom teeth taken out on this date. And my wife had an appointment to go see her OB. I wanted to go but was still feeling the drugs from the oral surgery.
I woke up to a crying wife and a cotton ball filled mouth.
I said, "Wwwwws Wooooog?"
Spit the gauze and cotton balls and said, What's wrong?
She said, "I'm sorry I didn't let you go!"
"what's going on, are you okay?"
And the picture came out......"We're 6 weeks pregnant!"
And I heard our babies heart beat!
Of course the tears started falling.
A lot of this didn't make a lot of since when we were telling people until we put a time line on it and everyones eyes and mouths just seemed to be wide open then.
1st 1.5 years we tried by our selfs - and got no Glory!
2nd 1.5 years we let the Docs try - heartache and no Glory.
We Prayed God answered, a eventually accepted it, and then God answered our prayers.
And HE gets ALL the GLORY!!!!!
I made a promise to God, that if he gave us a healthy baby, I get up and tell the church our testimony.
I have a huge fear of speaking in public so I still haven't got up in front of the church. But I have hold just about everyone I know.
My beautiful gift from God!
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