Full disclosure here, I’m currently two weeks into my second marriage.
First one lasted 18 years, about half of them happy.
Just like you, when we first started having issues, I totally blamed myself. I took every ounce of the blame. That was 2011. We worked hard and tried hard to fix things and there were a few ok years in there, but the pain and issues lingered and eventually she decided she wanted a divorce.
I blamed myself, every ounce of the blame.
Took me a long time to realize and accept that it’s never really one sided, it’s percentages, might be 50/50, might be 80/20, but it’s never 100/0.
You see your weaknesses. GOOD! Awesome start. You’re going to do the marriage counseling route, also great.
Work on your marriage, work on fixing what you feel is broken and be open to the things that the counselor suggests. But also work on YOU. Not as a husband, but as an individual. Work on making yourself a full and complete individual.
If you have a good woman, and there’s love there, then there’s hope, but don’t hang your entirety on it. I didn’t know who I was or what I wanted in my life until it all fell apart. For me the divorce was a blessing, my ex is frankly a terrible person, but I was blind to it because she was my world.
Do your best, try to become better everyday, and take life as it comes.
First one lasted 18 years, about half of them happy.
Just like you, when we first started having issues, I totally blamed myself. I took every ounce of the blame. That was 2011. We worked hard and tried hard to fix things and there were a few ok years in there, but the pain and issues lingered and eventually she decided she wanted a divorce.
I blamed myself, every ounce of the blame.
Took me a long time to realize and accept that it’s never really one sided, it’s percentages, might be 50/50, might be 80/20, but it’s never 100/0.
You see your weaknesses. GOOD! Awesome start. You’re going to do the marriage counseling route, also great.
Work on your marriage, work on fixing what you feel is broken and be open to the things that the counselor suggests. But also work on YOU. Not as a husband, but as an individual. Work on making yourself a full and complete individual.
If you have a good woman, and there’s love there, then there’s hope, but don’t hang your entirety on it. I didn’t know who I was or what I wanted in my life until it all fell apart. For me the divorce was a blessing, my ex is frankly a terrible person, but I was blind to it because she was my world.
Do your best, try to become better everyday, and take life as it comes.
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