Prayers for my grandma.

[okrattler]

I remember asking her about death at one point. Although I was young I understood what it felt like to be alone. I knew she was all I had at that point in my life and I was scared of being alone. She told me she was gonna die someday but we wouldn't worry about it until the time comes. It don't even seem real that,that time is growing nearer.

It's funny the things that I can remember being that young. I remember the first night I stayed at her house. She left the bathroom light on next to my bedroom so I wouldn't be scared. She told me she "sprayed for ghosts." So I wouldn't worry about any of those things. She spoiled me rotten. And whooped me when I needed it,which was pretty often. For a long time she was all I had. And I was all she had. It's hard seeing a person that was always strong in such a helpless place in their life. There ain't no way to prepare yourself for that.

I better get ready. Cause it's happening ready or not.

[Tedshell]

Praying for you bud!!!

[StrayDog]

Prayers sent.

When my grandpa passed a few months ago people gave me a hard time for not being more sad. I was plenty sad but I never cried and only thought about the good times with him. He was sick for quite a while before he passed and although I didn’t want him to die I wanted his suffering to end more. My reaction bothered me for a while until a buddy asked me if my grandpa was selfish.

I said absolutely not and asked why he’d ask such a question. He said he knew the answer and it was obvious he instilled upon me a similar quality - he said being ok that he’s pain free and resting in heaven is just not being selfish. That’s simply how my grandpa taught me to be and that I was just remembering good times and not being sad about his transition to heaven. My buddy reminded how well grandpa had raised me.

Seems like you might be in a similar situation.

[Big H]

Prayers sent

[lovemylegacy]

Prayers up

[Burnadell]

She sounds like a special lady, and she imposed her goodness on you, and you have realized that. I's say that was a win. It hurts when we lose our loved ones, but it is part of like. We all die, but that realization does not make it any easier. How old is she?

Prayers sent.

[Burnadell]

Where in the panhandle do you live? Guymon, by chance?

[Oleman]

Prayers said for her and you.

[Mrshenkir]

Prayers sent

[okrattler]

Where in the panhandle do you live? Guymon, by chance?

About 45 minutes from there or so. I live in Turpin,Oklahoma. Not really much of a town but I've lived here my whole life pretty much.

[okrattler]

She sounds like a special lady, and she imposed her goodness on you, and you have realized that. I's say that was a win. It hurts when we lose our loved ones, but it is part of like. We all die, but that realization does not make it any easier. How old is she?

Prayers sent.

I appreciate ya Burnadell. She's 85 years old now.

[chopsknives]

Prayers Sent

[okrattler]

I appreciate all of the thoughts and prayers and kind words y'all. It's been a rough month all around. One kind of bad news after another. It's actually gotten to the point I'm thinking about going and getting tested for HIV just so I can have some positive news in my life. Because I'm pretty sure I don't have HIV.

[doghouse]

Prayers sent!

[MisterSanders]

Prayers sent brother