Coming a little late to the fire with this one but the last 2 days have been very overwhelming and stressful.
Dad as been sick for almost 3 weeks now and severely for the last week. We took him to the ER on Monday with severe chest pains and stomach pains.
After 10 hours in the ER they found 4 masses in his liver. Ranging from 2cm to 11cm with the largest being in the center of the liver closest to his center chest. His liver is enlarged and applying pressure to everything else.
He is having a biopsy in the morning sometimes to determine all the final results. But doctors have given us little hope to it not being cancer or it coming out benign. Less then 10% on both accounts.
Sadly we are thinking this has been in progress for about 6 months now. Just looking back over some of the past. He has a horrible dry coup cough and in severe pain when not medicated. We are afraid he may be in last stages.
My dad is stand up guy.A devout christian who has never smoked or had a drink in his entire life. He has severed God since he was a child. I have only heard him same maybe 3 cuss words my entire life and of course I was to be blamed for all 3 of them. As much as I would love to laugh at that. The tears over come my laughter at this time while I type this.
Those of you who know me well, know that I have been caring for my parents for the last several years. Dad has worked for himself for most his life and has no retirement, no health insurance (just got on medicare recently) and struggling to pay his payments for that. He has been a type 2 diabetic for the last 3 or 4 years. He has no life insurance and no burial insurance. He has no money saved which is obvious because I have been helping them financially for a while now. If we had to bury him next week we would only be able to do so with the change in our pockets. I have given up alot to do what I can and help them best I can. This is why I shut my construction business down to help him full time with his gigs because he could not work by himself any longer and too stubborn to just retire. Which to prove my point he caught his finger in the table saw Sunday while we were working. You would think after 3 other fingers and 1 twice he would have learned by now.
My mom is only 60 but has not worked for many many many years. She has some health issues of her own which keeps her from being able to hold down a job but helps me care for Annalisa when I am working, especially out of town. She is more a mother to her most the time rather then a grandmother and more so then Annalisa's own mother. Annalisa is the only grandchild out of 3 boys. She is their world and her world as well. Annalisa was pretty upset today on the way home from the hospital.
I can tell my dad is very scared even though he will never admit it. I have only seen my dad cry a few times in my life and today was one of those while talking with his brothers and sisters on the phone.
As I mentioned before this is all overwhelming especially because now he will no longer be able to work at all. Which physically for him will be best but now puts more pressure on me to provide not only for me and Annalisa but also to take care of them fully financially and now physically as well as emotionally.
I am asking for prayers from everyone who can spare 1 or 100 for that matter. As tomorrow approaches quickly we fear what test results will tell us. Not only prayers for him but for the doctors and nurses caring for him and my family as well. As much as this is overwhelming for him it is for all of us as well.
I guess I am just realizing all the pressure being applied to my shoulders now. We have been struggling for a while now with work being hit and miss and do what we can to keep bills caught up.
As soon as I know test results and what or options are I may be needing odd jobs to help save up some money as well as getting and keeping the bills paid up. So if you hear of anything local to the DFW area for odd jobs or side jobs etc it would be much appreciated to pass it on to me.
I have a resume in with a company as of yesterday but have not heard anything yet for a interview. I dont have high hopes as there are more out there qualified for the position the me and while the pay starting out would be slim pickings now with all the weight on my shoulders but it would be steady income. Which is better then not knowing how much your next check is gonna be or if you will have one at all.
Thank you to all who have already prayers, called and sent texts. It is much appreciated and I just ask that you continue to do so strong well into tomorrow.
Sorry for the long read and I have not proof read so I apologize for any typos as I am completely worn right now spending the last 2 days at the hospital. Thanks for letting me vent though. I needed that off my chest and are more words in this post then I have said in the last 2 days.
I love all my TBH family and know yall have come through for me in the past with prayers and know you will do so now. No other place to turn to then yall.
Dad as been sick for almost 3 weeks now and severely for the last week. We took him to the ER on Monday with severe chest pains and stomach pains.
After 10 hours in the ER they found 4 masses in his liver. Ranging from 2cm to 11cm with the largest being in the center of the liver closest to his center chest. His liver is enlarged and applying pressure to everything else.
He is having a biopsy in the morning sometimes to determine all the final results. But doctors have given us little hope to it not being cancer or it coming out benign. Less then 10% on both accounts.
Sadly we are thinking this has been in progress for about 6 months now. Just looking back over some of the past. He has a horrible dry coup cough and in severe pain when not medicated. We are afraid he may be in last stages.
My dad is stand up guy.A devout christian who has never smoked or had a drink in his entire life. He has severed God since he was a child. I have only heard him same maybe 3 cuss words my entire life and of course I was to be blamed for all 3 of them. As much as I would love to laugh at that. The tears over come my laughter at this time while I type this.
Those of you who know me well, know that I have been caring for my parents for the last several years. Dad has worked for himself for most his life and has no retirement, no health insurance (just got on medicare recently) and struggling to pay his payments for that. He has been a type 2 diabetic for the last 3 or 4 years. He has no life insurance and no burial insurance. He has no money saved which is obvious because I have been helping them financially for a while now. If we had to bury him next week we would only be able to do so with the change in our pockets. I have given up alot to do what I can and help them best I can. This is why I shut my construction business down to help him full time with his gigs because he could not work by himself any longer and too stubborn to just retire. Which to prove my point he caught his finger in the table saw Sunday while we were working. You would think after 3 other fingers and 1 twice he would have learned by now.
My mom is only 60 but has not worked for many many many years. She has some health issues of her own which keeps her from being able to hold down a job but helps me care for Annalisa when I am working, especially out of town. She is more a mother to her most the time rather then a grandmother and more so then Annalisa's own mother. Annalisa is the only grandchild out of 3 boys. She is their world and her world as well. Annalisa was pretty upset today on the way home from the hospital.
I can tell my dad is very scared even though he will never admit it. I have only seen my dad cry a few times in my life and today was one of those while talking with his brothers and sisters on the phone.
As I mentioned before this is all overwhelming especially because now he will no longer be able to work at all. Which physically for him will be best but now puts more pressure on me to provide not only for me and Annalisa but also to take care of them fully financially and now physically as well as emotionally.
I am asking for prayers from everyone who can spare 1 or 100 for that matter. As tomorrow approaches quickly we fear what test results will tell us. Not only prayers for him but for the doctors and nurses caring for him and my family as well. As much as this is overwhelming for him it is for all of us as well.
I guess I am just realizing all the pressure being applied to my shoulders now. We have been struggling for a while now with work being hit and miss and do what we can to keep bills caught up.
As soon as I know test results and what or options are I may be needing odd jobs to help save up some money as well as getting and keeping the bills paid up. So if you hear of anything local to the DFW area for odd jobs or side jobs etc it would be much appreciated to pass it on to me.
I have a resume in with a company as of yesterday but have not heard anything yet for a interview. I dont have high hopes as there are more out there qualified for the position the me and while the pay starting out would be slim pickings now with all the weight on my shoulders but it would be steady income. Which is better then not knowing how much your next check is gonna be or if you will have one at all.
Thank you to all who have already prayers, called and sent texts. It is much appreciated and I just ask that you continue to do so strong well into tomorrow.
Sorry for the long read and I have not proof read so I apologize for any typos as I am completely worn right now spending the last 2 days at the hospital. Thanks for letting me vent though. I needed that off my chest and are more words in this post then I have said in the last 2 days.
I love all my TBH family and know yall have come through for me in the past with prayers and know you will do so now. No other place to turn to then yall.
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