First off I just want to say, I am not looking for sympathy (although prayers are always welcome). I just feel that putting my thought in writing may hopefully be a step toward healing…
It all started on March 16th. The Friday before spring break, I got a call that a good friend died in a car accident the night before. He was my sons soccer coach last year and his son is in my Cub Scout Den. We had plans/obligations to go back home to Mississippi for spring break so I unfortunately could not stay for the funeral. While we were in Mississippi I found out that it was not an accident – he took is life! He left a wonderful wife and to absolutely amazing boys behind to pick up the pieces. I have no idea what was going on in his life to make him consider such an option. I also have no idea what would make anyone think that such a chicken **** action is acceptable of forgivable. He was a good friend but I still have no idea how or if I will ever be able to forgive him for such a cowardly and selfish act…
I got back from spring break and go to work to find out that March 30th will be my last day. After 7 years of exceeding personally sales goals (last year at 150% of my goal) the company has decided my entire team of 14 nation ional sales reps would no longer be needed! Great what else could happen? I wish I hadn’t asked that!!!!!!!!!
About noon I got a call from my brother telling me that my Mom was back in the Hospital. Not to worry her blood presser is low and they are running tests. He will call me back later when they learn more. I did not think too much about it. She has been in and out the last few years. Usually just needs an IV and antibiotics. When she gets home we get on to her about taking better care of herself. I finally get a call from my sister. After not hearing back from my brother she tracked the Dr. down. His first question to her was “are you on your way?†Turns out after several years of fighting (with out telling us) her liver has failed causing her blood pressure to bottom out so low that the vessels in her throat ruptured. Now she has a failed liver and internal bleeding causing her to throw up blood. You would think she would go to the hospital on her own – NO she hides it until she becomes septic and passes out… Anyway the Dr. tells my sister that our Mom has a 25% chance of making it through the night. So I drop everything and we are hauling *** back to Mississippi. What the hell what are they going to do - fire me from my job? We managed to get to the Hospital about Midnight. Mom was still lucid so we had some time to talk and just let her know we were there for her. (she had already signed a DNR) Tuesday morning she was still fighting but very uncomfortable. It was miraculous that she made it through the night but the Dr. gave no chance of her leaving.
Liver failed, septic, kidney (she only had one) failed, so now fluids are building up in the lungs and around the hart causing both of them to start failing. They started giving her medication to make her comfortable. “She can’t make it much longer†was heard many times. It was a long agonizing vidual until she passed Thursday AM.
I would like to ask two things from my brothers and sisters here. If your parents are still around keep in touch and lit them know you love them no matter how mean and ornery they may be to you.
For those of you with kids let them know what is going on. It may be hard to tell them but if there are problems they deserve to know so they can be prepared and know why you are being mean and ornery…
Please just live every day like it could be your last or the last of a loved one. You never know when the day will come.
It all started on March 16th. The Friday before spring break, I got a call that a good friend died in a car accident the night before. He was my sons soccer coach last year and his son is in my Cub Scout Den. We had plans/obligations to go back home to Mississippi for spring break so I unfortunately could not stay for the funeral. While we were in Mississippi I found out that it was not an accident – he took is life! He left a wonderful wife and to absolutely amazing boys behind to pick up the pieces. I have no idea what was going on in his life to make him consider such an option. I also have no idea what would make anyone think that such a chicken **** action is acceptable of forgivable. He was a good friend but I still have no idea how or if I will ever be able to forgive him for such a cowardly and selfish act…
I got back from spring break and go to work to find out that March 30th will be my last day. After 7 years of exceeding personally sales goals (last year at 150% of my goal) the company has decided my entire team of 14 nation ional sales reps would no longer be needed! Great what else could happen? I wish I hadn’t asked that!!!!!!!!!
About noon I got a call from my brother telling me that my Mom was back in the Hospital. Not to worry her blood presser is low and they are running tests. He will call me back later when they learn more. I did not think too much about it. She has been in and out the last few years. Usually just needs an IV and antibiotics. When she gets home we get on to her about taking better care of herself. I finally get a call from my sister. After not hearing back from my brother she tracked the Dr. down. His first question to her was “are you on your way?†Turns out after several years of fighting (with out telling us) her liver has failed causing her blood pressure to bottom out so low that the vessels in her throat ruptured. Now she has a failed liver and internal bleeding causing her to throw up blood. You would think she would go to the hospital on her own – NO she hides it until she becomes septic and passes out… Anyway the Dr. tells my sister that our Mom has a 25% chance of making it through the night. So I drop everything and we are hauling *** back to Mississippi. What the hell what are they going to do - fire me from my job? We managed to get to the Hospital about Midnight. Mom was still lucid so we had some time to talk and just let her know we were there for her. (she had already signed a DNR) Tuesday morning she was still fighting but very uncomfortable. It was miraculous that she made it through the night but the Dr. gave no chance of her leaving.
Liver failed, septic, kidney (she only had one) failed, so now fluids are building up in the lungs and around the hart causing both of them to start failing. They started giving her medication to make her comfortable. “She can’t make it much longer†was heard many times. It was a long agonizing vidual until she passed Thursday AM.
I would like to ask two things from my brothers and sisters here. If your parents are still around keep in touch and lit them know you love them no matter how mean and ornery they may be to you.
For those of you with kids let them know what is going on. It may be hard to tell them but if there are problems they deserve to know so they can be prepared and know why you are being mean and ornery…
Please just live every day like it could be your last or the last of a loved one. You never know when the day will come.
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